Do you ever feel underappreciated?  Why on earth am I working so hard and exhausting myself for no one to say “Thanks Sylvonna, that was some really good work you did today!”  I just pray that all this work adds up to one great resume by the time I am done with all of this!

Anyways, now I sit here in my apartment still not feeling fully recovered from my bout with a sinus infection.  I have discarded all my rules and I am sitting on the couch with a container of cake frosting (which is quite delicious) watching the Michigan football game…I call that a LOVELY Saturday afternoon!

By the end of this week (which I am hoping FLIES by) I will be back at home for an all too short visit.  I cannot wait, I could just jump out of my skin with excitement…home never seemed so good as it does now.

That is all, really.  I hope you all are doing well!

P.s.  I will be participating in the Alzheimer’s Association Memory Walk on Nov. 4, 2006.  If you feel so inclined please visit my site and maybe leave a donation…even $5 makes a difference!

http://memorywalkmemphis.kintera.org/faf/r.asp?t=4&i=156560&u=156560-150211875&e=776020742

Today has been a somewhat rainy day with spurts of sunshine.  Nonetheless I've spent the whole day couped up in my apartment once again.  But today something was produced...my first piece of artwork.

http://i29.photobucket.com/albums/c268/sreed418/DSCF2138.jpg

It really isn't too introspective. I don't even know what it means or represents yet, but I know there's something there.  It just looks like paint now, but soon I'll figure out what it means to me...even if it's just companionship...knowing I made it.

I was also thinking today about art in general.  How people look at DaVinci, Monet, Van Gogh, etc. as the artistic geniuses; to me abstract art seems so much more expressional.  I know their art meant something to them too, but generally each piece is seen so literally.  Abstract allows people to look into the piece and try to find an emotion. This allowed me to open up, get over the fact that I lack any artistic ability, and create something abstract.  It doesn't have to be literal, it doesn't have to be scenic...it's just expression!

Currently Listening Don't You Fake It By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus see related

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

I sit here quietly...a faint mixture of many sounds: the loud southern cockraoches in the trees outside my window, the hum of the air conditioner, the ever so frequent sirens passing by, the tv I keep on all night to "feel safer."

One week I've been here and I am already homesick.  Maybe it's just that sitting alone in your apartment for hours on end being able to watch nothing but old re-runs on tv isn't the best of company.  Everything here is so new to me...I just need something to be familiar; less overwhelming.

Once I get into the groove ("boy you've got to prove your love to me....") things will be much smoother, but this chilling alone all day stuff is getting to me!

And the damn cockroaches need to shush so I can sleep at night!

I guess there's a reason I always loved the Wizard of Oz: No matter where you are "There's no place like home..."

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"18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by...

Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye...

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own...

And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright...

And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be..."

Happy Birthday

...to our country...

but most of all my Grandpa.  He was a good man and life was taken from him too early!  Here's to another year he's missed and been missed!

And in honor of this day, one we use to celebrate our country and it's independence how about we try to keep it, and the rest of the world, around a little longer:

http://climatecrisis.org/